My bathroom has two mirrors facing each other on opposite walls. It’s great for checking out the back of your hair or discovering that it’s just a bug bite on your shoulder that’s making you itch. In the past I would use the mirrors for another reason.
Right before I would step into the shower I would bend forward and make sure that I could see each of my ribs and vertebrae very clearly in my back. Every time I saw the bones, I’d breathe a sigh of relief, “phew”, I was safe, I was secure. Similarly, each night when I laid down to sleep I would reach around my waist and make sure I could feel my ribs as I reached my other hand above my head. Then laying flat on my back, I would make sure that my hip bones were protruding to a satisfactory level.
Yesterday morning however the mirrors served a different purpose. When I caught a glimpse of myself, all I could do was smile very brightly. It was 7:45 AM and I had just completed sadhana. I felt like I was flying. I looked again at my reflection and felt an overwhelming sense of love. I felt the light of my soul, I felt beautiful, bountiful and blissful. Feelings that didn’t exist while checking out my bones in the mirror.
Instead of sighing a sense of relief because I was “skinny enough”, I smiled and thought, “hello beautiful”. I became overwhelmed with a sense of gratitude and compassion.
Later that day when I stepped out of the shower, for a split second I thought about “checking out my back”. This was simply out of habit and when I realized this to be the case, I started to laugh. Not only was this completely silly and unnecessary, it did not interest me at all. This is the beauty of doing Kundalini Yoga. It gives you the gift of consciousness. You become so aware of your thoughts that you can decide what to do with each of them. You can become a slave to those that aren’t serving you, or you can simply let them go. You can decide to move on and become the master of your mind. When you choose the latter, you can live with love and peace and the thoughts that were of anything else simply begin appearing less and less, till almost not at all.